:blue: Yesterday I got back into reading the DBZ fanfic: Being of Sound Mind and Body, I had skipped to chapter 10 to see if Nappa would show his true feelings and to tell you the truth it was something that made me even sympathetic for the Saiyan brute than ever before. The chapter moved me ever so and I felt so temporal about the situation and remorses for Nappa. Nappa is most sympathetic and underrated character to DBZ universe and I feel kinda bad for him in every way possible because Nappa was strong-willed and betrayed so easily by his comrade so forth. The fan fiction was something totally extraordinary, that I would have never would have guessed how I was going to feel in this chapter for the Saiyan…and so because of this I took a series of silence every night in honor of both Vegeta and Nappa.
It was about at least in the middle of midnight when I was reading the story on Nappa just before he went to earth and I read it with solemn determination. As read the chapter word for word my body and soon my heart started to tense as I felt things weren't going to turn out good. The stress between the squadron had built for Raditz and Vegeta couldn't win a single battle and Nappa felt somewhat worried he become a main target if he were to show his true powers and knew Frieza very well and it wasn't an option to lose the prince over to Frieza. After the celebration of Vegeta's win in a tournament and their celebration, Nappa went to check on his most trusted friend, Xientlap as he was sent message on what he was going to tell Nappa, but he got there he found his best friend dead with his organs scattered across the room only to leave Nappa in a state of shock and to scream in fear, he then found there was murder on the loose and went to go find him with the aid of Insics and then found the murderer, Kriel who had just cut into Vegeta, but managed to save in time. If matters didn't get any worse despite he killed the murderer, He had lost his sergeant to Frieza and Insics was moved to computer work for Nappa to never to see him again and then Frieza took the rights to train Vegeta and he and Raditz would go on missions not to spoil their "talent", it was so sad to see this happen to Nappa only for him to say his "He did it" "He found away to separate me and Vegeta" and that haunted him, I knew was to come next that my tension builded up and I felt the same pain as he did and after he went in his room, he cried himself to sleep.
I just couldn't take much more to see such the this proud and strong Saiyan lose everything in his life made my heart drop, he not only lost the prince, but four of his best friends that he would never see again and took in a lot of grief and regrets towards this. After this I just couldn't really stomach to read more the fanfic and I've fallen into a state a sadness for the belligerent Saiyan warrior that many people don't seem to care about. I had to take a break and I was going to go to bed, but while washing my dishes I just thought of how this journal of Nappa's would come in reach if the Z Fighters were to have found it and I could just imagine Bulma reading to everyone at a party and Vegeta scoff off some of these resentments and also being shocked of what did to take in sacrifice in order to protect Vegeta, the kid he raised who later killed him. Nappa entirely lost hope when wrote in his journal despite he urged himself on and I felt sorry for him and even imagined myself as a Saiyan on his journey with him and the young prince and I couldn't take the fact that after the moment he cried and in the afternoon he woke he took his ease not showing his emotions and said that he had to move, I imagined myself at that moment just walking into the room while he was stilling crying or at least later on saying to him "It's okay to let you're feelings out even the people closest to you…you JUST CAN'T MAKE IT SEEM LIKE IT WAS NOTHING, you just lose you're friends, your pride and your prince to that tyrant and make seem like it was nothing?" "You are a disgrace to the Saiyans then! A true warrior would show his true feelings and take the time to remorse for quarrels like this, a true warrior takes the time to express and show his true feelings and use that as his goal and not give it the cold shoulder, and thats the whole point of growing up in life!" "If this is how you act in a time of remorse and make it seem like nothing happened and show no resentment for it…then you don't deserve to be called a Saiyan". Imagined the whole thing and hoping it would become my dream that night, but I knew I wasn't going to see it subconsciously, but knew it would happen at some point even if I didn't get to see.
It tore me apart and before I went to bed went to read it again and when I got to the apart when Nappa started to cry, I felt remorse again and by surprise, faintly heard the crying of the Saiyan like he were actually somewhere, I had imaged the whole thing and saw for what it was for and I was in ruins for the Saiyan and even cried for him something I had never did for any Dragon Ball Z character ever in my life! I could only imagine if this is what both Vegeta and Nappa really went in their younger years and in salute I took the whole with silence and before going to bed I went on my phone to find a picture of the character and say these exact words over and over "I'm sorry, Nappa, I'm sorry for what happened to you, I'm so sorry". I looked at the picture of a few minutes and set down the phone to my left on the bed base, before the phone turned off and laid by Nappa's side crying like he was. It was very hard to sleep and couldn't fall into a deep sleep as I thought about Nappa and was scared of the dark and had to turn on my Mac a few times. But I stood in strong for Nappa and with a prayer, I kept the mac off, but not before looking at Nappa once more and saying the same words "I'm sorry for what happened to you" I then rested my head and cried myself to sleep with Nappa being my protector just so he was for Vegeta.